So… Let’s see here…
WHY AM I GOING TO INDIA?
Traveling has always been a passion of mine.
Culture. Food. People. New exciting experiences.
But all of those things are really secondary…
I’m going because I know God wants me to go. Because… He has been nudging at my heart- giving me signs, and I’m tired of passing off all these signs as… mere coincidences.
This smart dude once told me that whether you believe it is coincidence, or a sign from God- either way it takes Faith. So, now I’ve decided to no longer believe in coincidences.
BAM. Mind-blown.

You see…  I’ve been asking the Lord for signs… like.. REAL! HUGE! CONCRETE! signs so that I cannot doubt that those signs are from Him… and Jeez louise. He is so faithful… SO faithful that it’s mind-boggling. BAM, again. How can such a perfect and amazing God love someone who is so broken and weak like me? Wowza… Life changing.
He has answered all of my prayers since I was a little girl, and it took me this long to realize how REAL He is.
Prayers that I prayed under my breath that were so self-centered, insignificant, and unworthy-
prayers that I whispered in bed while laying down that I thought no one heard were all answered in the most wonderful and flawless ways.

Up until this year, I have been so angry and bitter towards God because I felt that He didn’t care about me because He didn’t give me “stuff” I asked for or do things in the manner I wanted Him to follow through. I expected instant gratification results because that’s what I was accustomed to living in this fast-paced world. But now I’ve finally realized that His plans are not only bigger and greater, but much more meticulously planned out than my plans.
Everything in His timing is… perfect.
Summer of 2011, I got to travel around Europe for 10 weeks with new faces from all over the U.S. and Canada- and it.. was.. Incredible! That was when I heard of what’s going on in India from a dear Canadian friend that I met during my study abroad trip named Tracy. Tracy was in India for a month teaching English in 2010, and her stories were amazing. That’s when I knew that I just HAD to find some way to get there. I didn’t know it then, but God already gave me a piece of His heart then- to go and love on His children.
I wanted to just… play with the orphans, hug them, and love on them. (Just like what He wants to do with us- ALL people…)
Slowly but surely, God is revealing more and more of himself to me, and I just want to be obedient. I feel like I'm finally seeing the world as I was intended to through His eyes. I see His fingerprints here in his world, and I want to run after it. Chase it.
I don’t want to make Him sad anymore or break His heart like what I have been doing. For the first time I want to do something for His glory and stop asking for things because finally… I see that His Love truly is enough.

I want to obey.

I want to- WANT to obey.
Therefore, this trip to India will be another baby-step in my effort to become more obedient.